Inner Demons

I am bipolar, I am fine. Fuck you, excuse me.

I wish all this could be different.
Can't really help it, to be honnest.
I've tried so many times, so many ways.
I guess I'm just fucked up and always will be.
I've been losing so much people cause of this shit.
And I don't want to say I ain't the one to blame... Of course it's coming from my brain.
Though I don't realise at the moment I'm feeling like this that all those ideas are false.
At least for the majority.

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I don't know if I am bipolar or not. I don't think so, but I know I have emotional problems. I've been reading very much about depressivity (sp?) and those kind of mental illness, and I have 9 symptoms out of 13. I can't say I am or not cause I haven't been able to pass enough time with psychologists.

All I can tell is that I've been wanting to rip my brain off my head yesterday. That's all. Thank you.